I've been married for about 3 years and 3 months and since the time I tied the knot it is only recently that I am beginning to enjoy my married life. Ironic but even I am surprised and I was dwelling over this thought the whole weekend.
Is it a good thing or bad thing?
Why just now?
But thank God it happened.
I must say that ours' was never a planned marriage at all. We were just friends at that time, we did not even have a commitment and oooppss! We were on our way to parenthood. But I have no regerets because my men is the best that I have met so far, but of course there could have been better options..(hehehe) kidding aside, he's I guess everything that I wanted my partner to be, a complete opposite of MWUAH. But since we did not really have a relationship when we started our family, we were like hitting birds with one stone. Getting to know each other more and at the same time being husband and wife. It was very difficult, especially that his family was completely against our decision (gosh I can just imagine) not that we were hard headed but we just completely arrived to a realization that of all the relationships we had in the past, our friendship was one of a kind. We had that gutt feeling that we will have each other for the rest of our lives. And so we did.
It was like a Romeo and Juliet affair the most depressing point of my life aside from my mother's death. They completely pierced my heart it hurt. They judge me like there was no good in me at all. I lost friends and family because of what they did and I am greatfull that despite going through this painfull moment of my life, my men stood by my side even if sometimes I can feel his knees tremble.
Then came our first born, Ysabel. She sealed our family togther and became a bridge towards rekindling the once lost friendship with our family. It wasn't easy going back to that place . All I had was a bad memory of that paradise but for my daughter we had to go back there. And now we've made that place our home and somehow going back helped me heal my heart.
At this point, I must say that I am happy. Although trials still do come our way but unlike before my husband and I are more of partners now than we were before. We've become drinking buddies, bestfriends, teammates and it feels good that somehow weve learned to let go of the past and all the heartaches and just enjoy whatever we have at the moment, especially now that we have Miguel.
I hope that as we grow older we are still together, holding each others hand through thick and thin and Im sure no problem is too huge for as long as we stand by each other.
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